I have some kind of unspecified dissociative disorder and it’s weird. The other day I was having a stress response to some stuff. Woke up, remember some stuff about the morning, then remember coming back into existence that evening. The entire house was cleaned including garage and driveway. I had been talking with people too. I think I remember parts of it but I don’t actually know if they’re post-dissociation manufactured memories as my brain tried to fill in the gap. Malls are the worst for me they’re a sensory nightmare and I’ll usually start dissociating within a few minutes.

I’ve gotten so used to it that I’ve built up a “what am I doing?” skill set. Sometimes I’m just suddenly somewhere else in the house or in a different part of town shopping or some shit. I have to piece together what’s going on like in Memento. Am I me during those times I can’t remember? DID has been ruled out but if I can’t remember things than what exactly is running the body while I’m away? People who interact with me say I respond to stuff slowly, in a confused or dreamlike way, and need things repeated to me multiple times. Sometimes they can pull me out of it then they have to explain where we are and what we’re doing.

Imagine watching a movie and periodically hitting the next scene button. Sometimes you skip a little bit, sometimes a lot, and you need to piece together what was missed based on limited info.

Mine sleeps like this all the time :3

US checking in, of the 5 or 6 therapists I’ve had and the similar number my ex spouse has had, I think only one charged before a session. There’s a couple I’m not sure on because it was covered entirely by insurance and we were never directly billed so can’t say the timing

With Proton being in some hot water, any other suggestions?

1st edition is a guarantee but a normal base set holo could work with a good diplomacy roll

Best coffee shop I ever used to frequent was the worst at getting drinks correct. Owner was fantastic, friendly, and put years of work into building community there. Such a rare find in the city made me feel like I was in a small town again. Anyway I always ordered the same drink and always walked away with something completely different. I didn’t care I was there for the community. Met a lot of good people there

Millions of us are protesting and direct action groups are gaining more support and being more active. We’re slow to the draw yes, and this type of movement should have happened much earlier, but it’s inaccurate to say none of us are doing anything

Edit to add: https://lemmy.world/post/28297299

I’m going in for level design on games! It’s something I already have some experience in, I’ve been programming for over 15 years at this point, and I currently do QA at Unity. So I’ve got some good technical background. That with a degree should get me into a lot of places (I hope)

Tack så mycket :3

Haha, yeah. I maybe blew up my household dynamic in one conversation the other day. Wish me luck everyone 🤞

I switched from chase to becu a while back and the difference is staggering. I should have done it way earlier

I usually try and work on location of my job

I’m off to Sweden to go back to school, see if I can get a degree this time a decade after my first attempt

Yeah I live here currently but plans are set in motion to leave. I don’t feel safe going through TSA to leave, let alone domestic travel, and am considering bussing to Canada and flying out from there

Mass organizing in the US is logistically difficult, and all our media is owned by people who want to see the protests fail so the coverage isn’t amazing. But we have millions of people protesting right now and the numbers have been growing fast. Protesters have been under threat of arrest and possible death for ages, and they’re opening it up to “get black bagged and sent to tortureville forever”. We have so much working against us even getting resistance off the ground and yeah we aren’t amazing at it, there’s a good chance we can’t pull it off, but we’re trying

Fun fact estrogen makes people feel colder. Many trans women, including myself, have a much harder time staying warm after starting hrt. I don’t remember the exacts but it changes blood flow and makes it easier to lose heat

I’ve come to the conclusion in the last couple weeks I simply can’t identify AI images anymore. I have no clue what about this makes everyone call it out as AI, and there’s have been many such instances of this happening with me lately. I’m going to get modern day Nigerian princed when I’m older I can feel it in my bones

Joined 7 hours ago and only posts certified shit takes with inflammatory language. Get ratioed troll, lol

“God works in mysterious ways 🤗”

In Seattle you’re supposed to say multiple times that you’ll totally do the thing, and also make a bunch of other vague plans at the same time, and repeatedly assure each other you’re going to break Seattle’s ghosting trend and you really mean it, then don’t talk to or see them again for four months but when you do start the process over again