Throw away account obviously but I’m sitting here, on a Friday night alone. I recently split off with my fiancee of 2 years, we were supposed to be wed in a few months. Shes off partying and living life up, and I’m happy for her. We still live together for the time being before our lease ends. This is exactly how my previous relationship ended. Ironic. She has a social circle to support her.
Well, throughout the course of 5 years, I have slowly burned many bridges of friends and over the course of 10 years, have destroyed many women’s perception of trust. The list goes on. My regret and guilt is an all time high.
On top of this, my family doesn’t really know the real me. I have such a hard time making connections with them and others at this point of my life.
I am seeking to rectify the entire situation by trying some therapeutic techniques. AMA.
What do you do career-wise? It sounds like with the introspection you have been doing it might be time to try and make a fresh start somewhere else, but that will depend on what you can do to support yourself.
As far a guilt and regret goes, it may be worth the time trying to reach out to the people you have hurt the most and, if nothing else, apologize. It helps you more than it helps them, and there is maybe potential to make peace with some people.
Forgiving yourself is harder, but there is only so much you can do about the past. Repair what you can and learn from what you can’t.