My cat of twelve years died on my birthday. He had been sick with Triaditis for about 6 weeks and I had to feed him through a tube 3 times a day. Each time would take about an hour and a half.

He was getting better, too. Putting on weight, and ate his own meals for 5 days. But the E-tube got infected and so we took it out 2 days early.

He got home. He vomited. He stopped eating for two days. He started vomiting and acted in pain and so I took him in again. They discovered fluid in his abdomen. He was too skinny from his digestion issues for a further hospitalization and he was in pain.

He slept each night in my armpit with his head on my shoulder.

I worked from home before the pandemic, and so I was with him almost all of the time for his life. I loved his tiny 6 lb ass.

He was a bathroom communist. It could be 3 a.m. and I could check that he was asleep, and when I looked up from sitting on the toilet, the door would be slightly ajar and he’d be in front of me watching the door.

I miss you, little dude.

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The gnats inside the house.

Advertising and the stock market. Two evil controlling systems that systematically abuse humans daily. Fired, stock market. Some random dude got some absurd promotion to tank the company and ruin people’s lives - stock market. Forced to watch advertising every fucking where you go… Ohh sorry someone needs to do that to make money so fuck you.

Gestures at the current state of America

Family or rally any retired person who doesn’t understand that you are working and trying to survive in this fucked-up word, and get upset when you can’t take days off whenever they please, trying to guilty-trapping you or just being condescending about you being busy.

There was this client. Gut says she’s bad news so I refused to work for her.

A couple years later she asks me again. She’s friends with 5 of my other clients so fuckit, I take the job.

End up crawing under her 1962 house, drilling holes and running wires. Horrible job and a mild but lasting knee injury.

Always trust gut.

At the age of 40 I have suddenly developed a pollen allergy, the meds knock me out but without them I’m a snotty mess, my skin, mouth, throat, eyes, really anything in contact with outside air itches and does its best to mess up my day.

Sibling has two chores. These chores only need to be done once a week, each.

They consistently forget them in the asshole for telling them no, they still need to do it, just because they ‘forgot’ doesn’t mean they can leave it for next week.

They already changed it to easier chores. So I’m not going to give them something even easier.

Discovered phone launcher I use (Ratio Launcher) got bought out by some shady company , peops who bought their lifetime subs now expected to perpetually drain their wallets to this company . Play store has so many 1⭐ reviews . Hate subscription models so much . At least modded APKs of it exist , where I would be without em

I’m scared that I’m developing tinnitus. It started in one ear a few days ago and won’t go away. It’s not getting worse, but also not letting up either. It comes and goes, but when it’s quiet in the room, I can hear it clearly.

No particular event has occurred for it to start, sound wise. No loud things or blasts or anything. But I haven’t been sleeping properly for a good week or so. I should try getting some proper sleep. Maybe? I dunno.

My grandma is basically deaf, and my mother’s hearing got ruined when she was subjected to a house burglar alarm. Having bad hearing is not fun. I also love music and singing and such and I really don’t want to get effed-up hearing. My coworker is also afflicted by tinnitus and has to go to coping therapy and shit. It does not sound like a fun time to have this continuing, or progressing. 😟

The end.

Insomnia.

I finally landed on a sleep pattern that (mostly) alleviates/prevents my chronic migraines and today I got all of 45 minutes and haven’t been able to get a wink since. Think Green Day’s Brain Stew.

Trying to keep my meds and routines as much as possible and hopefully stay up/sleep in to where I need to but I worry I’m screwed for the next week or so.

The absolute crap interfaces that are being developed for electronic devices. There’s no reason for them to be as bad as they are at this point. They were getting better and better going from say 1996 until about 2005. After that they just started dropping off fast. The last few years they’re just atrocious. And there is just no excuse. I know it annoys people when I say it, but as far as I’m concerned, the people who develop these interfaces, when they get up in the morning, they do lines of crack until their brains just about explode. Then they go to work and say this would be a cool idea even though the rest of the world looks at and goes. What the hell?

There’s no logic in the interface no common sense that you can use to use them.

And the target/hit boxes are becoming so small if you have any sort of muscular issue good luck on ever using it.

The developers, the executives the companies do not give a crap. Their attitude is if you don’t like it just buy something else. The problem : that’s the way it’s all being designed so you literally have nothing else to buy.

Then you have the consumers , their attitude is basically you have a choice. You don’t have to buy it. Which is a completely moronic statement.

My response is basically I’ve stopped buying things. Unless I absolutely have no other choice I just make do with what I have and the world go screw itself.

I watched my mom try to tap an icon on the screen seven separate times before it would actually activate. think about that , seven times just to activate whatever she was trying to touch. That’s stupid. So I literally knelt down right next to the table and watched herfinger very carefully, hit the screen and come up. The problem was her finger was moving by just a few pixels. So it was counted as a drag. Who the fuck thought that would be a idea? I mean, I could understand if you touch and drag, like a distance on the screen OK well that’s dragging. But that incredibly tiny amount? What jackass thought this was a good idea.? If your finger so much is twitches, it won’t count it as touch. It’ll count it as a drag and it won’t activate.

The obsession Americans have with acronyms. Some of them can have wildly different meanings depending on the context (MTG, CP), and sometimes even in the same context can mean different things and you need further context, like video game titles (DS, GoW, AC, SC).

That for my entire life retirement age has not gone down, health care costs have gone up, and the hours worked per week haven’t changed.

I’m tired.