RiverGhost

This is my problem, I am impulsive and silly enough to still say things, but the way they come out sometimes makes me want to die a little inside and stop being perceived forever.

Sometimes if I am not doing too badly I still can turn it around, where the very failure of delivery can on its own get the laughs (or groans). If I sort of stay with it long enough to express something like “yeah, that was bad wasn’t it? want more?”. But it does require a minimum of social aptitude like you said, which for me varies a lot.

I wanted to try that in my home town in the tropics but I observed that anything underground fills with water immediately and even overground structures end up suffering water damage that’s very resistant to most measures I’ve seen.

Still wondering what’s best for those kind of climates.

I really enjoyed reading your story. It’s honest about your faults and kind to yourself at the same time. I hope I can find a way to see my own life in a similar way.