

There’s a very real possibility that I’ll need to confront probably my most important life decision ever soon. I’m trying to mentally prepare myself for the possibility of having to even consider it. If I do need to, I need to find a way to be at peace with that decision.
It’s a doozy too.
adding spoiler tag as the subject could be sensitive for somebody struggling with fertility
“Would I be ok never having a biological child of my own if it meant finding great love and joining an established family?” As someone who already feels like an outsider, would I ever feel like I belong? Am I willing to accept that my life never has a chapter of having and raising my own child if there is potentially an option/scenario where I could? Would I resent my decision?
Heavy stuff. Like I said though, it’s not something I need to confront right now but there’s a possibility that it might come up, so I should probably get my head straight about the concept so I know where I stand.
Anyway… almost weekend time woo. I think I might have a drink or two this afternoon.
I’ve tried loads of those mattresses in a box. I can tell you that Sleeping Duck is the best of them and worth the money. Ecosa was the 2nd best.
Here’s my notes on them from my notes app: