100% agree Amsterdam Pride is a corporate-led joke. I can’t even stomach going to the boat parade anymore, makes my blood boil. Bunch of capitalists, warmongers, and fascists (but I repeat myself) pretending to give a F about marginalized groups without a single hint of irony. Plus the grandstanding of government-approved performative issues of the year (pro-Ukraine and pro-Israel), August here we come.

Hang in there comrade, and to comment similar to another here: for the love of all that is good please never ever ever consume synthetic cannabis again. It’s really dangerous, doubly so for a person with PTSD. Spoken as myself some who also has PTSD and consumes real cannabis daily to help my own problems, the synthetic shit is 100% anti-theraputic. If I may kindly suggest, keep working out and staying active (and staying jacked apparently). And try to find some like minded kinfolk to keep you grounded in the real world. I know it’s easier said than done, and I’m no perfect example. But I feel for you and hope you can figure it out. Hugs from NL