That moment the meds are kicking in and the wave of calm arrives and takes over for a moment. The beautiful silence of just being. So called stimulants make me zen like a meditating monk at optimal dosage.

Sometimes I take a small dosage to fall asleep when I feel my brain is spinning in pointless circulating understimulated overdrive, it’s not only keeping me balanced during the day, but also sometimes helps me fall asleep at night.

I put them on humus-rich soil

(I’ll show myself out)

By authority of the central bank and the state? Checks out.

My maybe unpopular opinion is that it sucks that my meds, which are like my “glasses” correcting focus, motivation and emotional self-regulation, which are much safer than any antidepressants and at high dosage have about the same side effects as too much coffee, are being framed as dangerous stimulants and abused by idiots who snort them in their noses, and have to be so heavily regulated.

I got late diagnosed and since I got my meds I overcame my overthinking and anxiety issues, have no more of what I thought to be depressive episodes (caused by severe under stimulation and the burn-out of chronically forcing myself to do stuff against the strong child tantrum-like inner resistance with raw will power as you ADHD “expert” and all of my family suggested all of my life), and finally can feel and function like an adult and at the same time am much more zen and balanced.

Yes, having some symptoms does not qualify. Just as being sad sometimes does not qualify for depression. But every mental disorder is a matter of severity. You cannot feel how things feel to others. If a diagnosis and meds help a person, why would you not want them to get that help? It’s like saying that people who are short-sighted should just try harder and train their eyes and do not need glasses.

Seymour :'(

A beautiful answer, our trajectory was pretty similar, only that we were together and building it for over 10 years before we finally got married last year :)

My wife is my home, my constant, my safe harbor, the anchor of my sanity and peace of mind.

Two planets orbiting each other - I could not have said it better. We’re a unit that is greater than its sum and we grew and continue to grow together as individuals and into each other.

Tochter aus Elyyyysium

Bandcamp, because it is the best place for independent music and there is nothing close to it.

Steam, because they started with non-horrible DRM (compared to other options) and now they are one of the companies that help Linux succeed for gaming (Steam Deck is just a Linux computer with controllers attached, and Proton is awesome for running Windows games on Linux).

Yeah it’s an artificial dichotomy based on a popular misconception of what std::endl is and how \n is interpreted.

Ultimately it does not ask about line endings, but about flushing, which is a completely orthogonal question.

My true faith is: don’t be an asshole and be a decent, rational and empathetic human being.

Everything else I may or may not believe does not matter, it’s decoration.

Nice bud. Home grown?

Not putting enough money into education of the population is a crime against humanity done by the wealthy class. It’s a tragedy and it’s infuriating and it’s well understood, yet nothing ever changes, because education threatens the power of capital, while all that capital needs is cheap labor and stupid cattle consumers to support their “infinite growth”.

Haha absolutely, I’m also one of the people who always said all this rainbow and green washing is bullshit. As if they ever cared for anything.

Capitalism has no values, except for one: shareholder value. Yesterday they help sending people to concentration camps, today they help saving the world and increasing diversity, yeah, totally convincing.

There is one thing to rely on with capitalism - if you convince people you can make good money with it or it is good for the brand, they will jump onto it and squeeze the shit out of it. An abstract, amoral force, made from a large number of concrete shitty people.

Software developer here.

I only recently switched from vim to VSCode and I refuse to use any editor without vim emulation.

Regular expressions for quick and efficient and precise search and replace, modal editing which allows me to type di" to ‘delete inside current double quotes’ (needs vim-surround plugin), typing 123gg to go to line 123, press % to switch between any pair of marching braces, brackets or parentheses, and all sorts of such efficient goodies.

It’s not only efficient, vi has a whole concept, a philosophy how you can build quick editing commands. It’s not like remembering random shortcuts like Ctrl-C Ctrl-V. Once you understand the language, it becomes second nature and you can translate something you want to do into 5 key strokes which would need 100 otherwise or would involve the mouse and clicking and selecting etc.

I’m not even that good at vim, I’m just using the surface features.

It has very good reasons why every notable editor provides some form of vi editing emulation.

Nice metaphor that I have not heard before !

Yeah exactly, the upside is, at least for some of us, that we still feel we overall can somehow keep up and can do pretty well, sometimes exceptionally so, even though everything feels like a chaotic struggle or failure.

Yes, exactly. To make America great again, Americans first have to take their country back from the oligarchs that are destroying it and sucking it dry. Noone else can or will do it for them.

Haha nice observation, I’m pretty good with sorting the tickets for the weekly sprints at work, but I never connected the dots or consciously applied similar techniques in private life.

I guess I do kind of agile prints that are not measured in a fixed unit of time, but in natural hyperfocus waves…

Yeah can relate, it’s always nice if I can reach some milestone when switching the project hyperfocus again. Celebrating any tangible progress helps staying motivated. Small steps are nice, and each big step is a gift.

I wanted to review all rooms and get rid of stuff that I don’t need (like gadgets or old clothes or random household things). Well, I did a room and the basement. Some more to go. I planned this for this year, so I just wait for the motivation to come back to do the next room. Because reviewing a whole room and possibly rearranging half of the things and sorting stuff out takes at least half a day and is pretty exhausting.

That’s exactly it. Help each other heal and grow.

Just need to find the puzzle piece that fits, and then two half broken pieces can grow into a strong unit.

Just needs empathy, respect and good communication. It’s work, but it’s possible if both sides are genuinely interested in making it work. Just do not be a self-centered asshole and don’t have such a person as a partner.

It seems like so many relationships these days are shallow decoration. If you can’t talk to your partner about everything and you are not at least best friends, why the fuck even bother ? If it’s not the person you can trust your life with, it’s not your partner, but a fuck buddy. Some people seem to have some misunderstanding here what a serious relationship is, or do not even want such a thing.

Nice! I’d love to use Rust at work, I was a Haskell guy for hobby things, rather recently switched to Rust for that, and I enjoy it a lot. Taking 80% of the good lessons from functional programming while staying performant and practical and just have nice tooling - whoever designed Rust are wise people who know what is important for happy developers.

My job is mainly C++, and if you have seen the bright side of life, it is difficult not to be frustrated by the language and tooling. I think C++ without clang-tidy is almost as horrible as Python without types and linters. Undefined behavior and foot guns everywhere!