I had a nightmare about moving out of here but being forced back into a flatmate situation instead. Genuinely frightening. For context I’ve had some horrific sharehouse experiences and these days I don’t cope with people at all.

I’m also having to put Melbcat back on her normal twice daily meds routine because I keep missing the midnight dose. Adding one extra dose of pain meds changes the spacing and throws things off awkwardly into 3-4 separate doses a day and it’s too much to handle.

The abdominal pain is also getting really severe and difficult to manage and the rest of the tests are so far away. It feels like it’s going to be like this for the rest of my life.

I’m so tired and scared and in pain all the time. Despite my best efforts I’m surrounded by negativity and fear and really struggling with my mental health.