I’ve had 3 smokes today. These patches make me a little sleepy but I’ll suck that up. So far, so good 👍
you can do this 💐
I have gone to the beach, visited Cranbourne Botanic Gardens and bought a car, and it’s still only 2pm!
The gardens were very nice, but it was getting a bit hot in the full sun. Now I need to sort out some photos.
Going ‘shopping’ in the vacant offices downstairs. Have acquired several potential new chairs and a flash candy bowl.
nice
Good morning! Bit fresh out there.
Day 2. I’m looking forward to 9am starts instead of 8:30am.
That said we did get to go home early yesterday, and hopefully today as well.
Have a great day everyone ❤️
Edit: only woke up 4 times last night which beats the usual 8 or so times.
Is this one of those places you get the hour lunchbreak included as well so you don’t have to finish half an hour later?
Good question! Not sure yet. Hopefully it’s 9-5. I hate that extra 30 mins lol
TW mental health
I had a nightmare about moving out of here but being forced back into a flatmate situation instead. Genuinely frightening. For context I’ve had some horrific sharehouse experiences and these days I don’t cope with people at all.
I’m also having to put Melbcat back on her normal twice daily meds routine because I keep missing the midnight dose. Adding one extra dose of pain meds changes the spacing and throws things off awkwardly into 3-4 separate doses a day and it’s too much to handle.
The abdominal pain is also getting really severe and difficult to manage and the rest of the tests are so far away. It feels like it’s going to be like this for the rest of my life.
I’m so tired and scared and in pain all the time. Despite my best efforts I’m surrounded by negativity and fear and really struggling with my mental health.
I have no solutions except to confirm that chronic pain is a soul crusher. That you are persisting and still caring for yourself and melbcat is a feat. Hope you get a bit of respite soon.
Thanks. Things are brutal right now
We are hear to listen any time. Gentle hugs.
Thanks
so many hugs
hugs
So much info to absorb. Brain is mush.
Hell yeaaaah get dat pizza!
Val Kilmer died.
We knew it was coming, but all the same this is a sad thing.I liked his role in The Salton Sea.
NOOOO 😭😭😭
He played my favourite character in Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang
Tbh I love him in everything he’s done!
Vale Val
Such an underrated film. Everyone in it is great.
Ah, I was out of the loop. Loved him in Top Secret, 11yo me thought it was the funniest thing ever. RIP man.
So sad.
You’ll always be remembered Iceman.
he was so young too 😔
I think I just bought a car 😬
Brrmbrrm
Step 1 - check wallet. If empty, then yes you have bought the car.
Step 2 - check wallet. If full, then you may not have bought the car.
Step 3 - check wallet. If half empty, did you buy anything else?
The wallet’s always empty! The bank account at this stage is slightly dented, which means I paid a deposit, but have not yet completed buying the car.
Eeeee, how exciting!! What did you get?!
This is her:
Plenty of room for activities in the back of that. No, I’m not talking that. Camping! Chuck an airmatress in the back and your laughing.
I have joined the Volkswagon club (which means I will fit in with my family again). It actually not a car, it is a van. A Caddy, which means I have lots of space to carry things, am not paying for extra seats I don’t use, but it is not much bigger than my car was so is easy for parking etc. It also gives me a future project to fit out as a micro camper.
My FIL had one of those! Very useful and handy. They could comfortably fit all luggage in when travelling. My FIL could fit his golf related items in there plus mobility device and still leave room for shopping. We borrowed it when moving in.
They have a version with a removable row of seats in the back that would be great for a lot of people too - I think there’s even a 7 seater model, but I haven’t seen one actually for sale here. There are a ton of different configurations - I’ve seen a few turned into refrigerated delivery vans too!
If you’re not too tall it’ll make a great micro camper. If you can fit one of these down one side they make for a quick conversion for a solo camper: https://www.ebay.com.au/itm/387469263215. Storage underneath, makes for a bench seat, easy to pull out to either pack down or sleep under the stars.
Why am I still awake.
I'm potentially going to nope the f out of my course.
I took my first lesson ever today and it was a fail. My mentor gave me a respectful class and so behaviour was awesome. It was my actual teaching. Everything was fucked. I also observed the class that was 50% ND. They all should’ve had an aide but lack of funding. My mentor said she is stumped and is only teaching people who want to learn for the most part. I also don’t know why I wanted to teach my learning areas because I know fuck all about them. I also don’t want to do the assignments, even though they are relatively scaffolded. I am ready to become even more of a piece of scum in society as I don’t have anything valuable to offer. I don’t think study is for me, but neither is anything hands-on because I have a freaking disorder that impedes me. Yay, learned helplessness. My mum doesn’t want me to drop out because she exclaimed how I really wanted to do it and also it was my first lesson, but clearly I was off with the fairies. It seems silly to give up so easily, but at some point, I’ve got to recognise that something isn’t for me / doesn’t suit my personality.
I really like working with young people and building relationships, but standing up in front of 25 kids everyday, four times a day, I really overestimated myself. I don’t know what I’m going to now, but I will figure something out.
I have never considered teaching, and nor have I ever wanted to. But, I will say, if you’re not feeling it anymore with your course, then don’t push yourself any more into doing it; you’ll resent it and your brain will use it against you. You already seem really burnt out by the course, and people can’t push through burn out without a break.
Drop out or defer (if you can), and take a mental health break, go for more walks (if you can), get in touch with your hobbies and interests, friends even or a club. Then, look through the list of gov funded/free TAFE courses and see if any pique your interest. If you like building relationships with and helping young people, you could look into youth services courses instead. But don’t get ahead of yourself, look after your present self.
Also,
Said by someone who tried to push through burn out in a call centre and ended up in the ER twice. Also a partner to someone who tried to do the same.
I am ready to become even more of a piece of scum in society as I don’t have anything valuable to offer.
Nope nah no way. This line of thought isn’t going to help you, I promise. You DO have something valuable to offer to society, because you are human; this particular job just doesn’t align with you in the way you thought and THAT’S OKAY!!! It is so okay, it is normal. You wouldn’t be a scum of society by getting on centrestink or anything, you just need a break to figure out what does align to your values!
Thank you so much for taking the time to write this Spud. I feel like maybe I was being a bit dramatic, and perhaps I should do more teaching to really figure it out.
But I have to have a long hard think when I’ve calmed down a bit more.
Thank you again. I really appreciate it 🥰
Also I met an animal technician the other day, and thought of you. I know you’d be awesome at it, if that’s the path you choose to go down.
(Also asked a pig to sit and it sat hehe)
That would be good, to wait until you’re calm and clear headed! No making decisions in a heightened state of emotion 💜💜
Aw!!! That’s so cool! Animal techs have such a rewarding and difficult job, lots of euths and recording animals that aren’t well, but it’s so very rewarding to advocate for their welfare!!
I LOVE pigs!!! Omg! They’re so smart! 🥹
Even people who have gotten their degree and have taught still can have horrible years.
Infact at work I’m seeing it live with a new teacher who has had a number of years under her belt already.
You are there to learn and experience these things and to learn from your mistakes, just because it didn’t work out the first time doesn’t meant it’s all doom and gloom.
Low, you are there to learn and get experience, of course you don’t know everything on the first day.
I suggest you listen to your mentor.
And don’t be so easily put off. You can do this.
I think I will continue until the end of the semester and see how I go :) I was pretty riled up before and I think that impacted things.
That last sentence is the key. You got this.
Thank you :)
A friend of mine felt a bit the same, “why did I do this/what the hell have I done?” Until she got a job teaching English to adult students overseas. She just had to explore the options a bit more and find something that suited her. Maybe you’ve got to explore a bit more to find your “zone”?
I don’t have anything valuable to offer
This is not true. Teaching is not easy but the skills (and patience) you’ve learnt will cross over to anything and everything you decide to do.
That’s true :)
Look, don’t blame yourself. Teaching is hard and I see teachers online talking about how the current crop of kids are more difficult to handle.
There are definitely other options for working with young people that isn’t like that
I feel terrible for giving up so easily, but until there’s some sort of radical change in the system, I don’t think I want to do it
Trust yourself, if you really don’t want to do it don’t waste time or further money on sunk cost fallacy.
Maybe there’s still time to withdraw and get some of the tuition back?
The date was two days ago, and they’re not very lenient. But I shall see.
One of the earliest set pumpkins is looking bigger and a few are yellowing… please hurry 🙏❄️💀
Realistically I know the cold is probably going to kill them and I might not get any ripe. The Jack Be Little are frost sensitive and the Golden Nuggets haven’t even started female flowers yet.
But I’m treating this as a practice run so I learn more about their needs and hopefully can be more prepared in Spring. Hopefully these at least develop enough to get some nice pics before they’re consigned to the compost.
This is the plumpkin from a few angles
spoiler
that looks great 🙂
Thanks. I hope next time I can get lots of fruit
Got annoyed today, someone constantly needing things from me, even when they can see I’m working out of my office about to do some other work.
My stupid first reaction and instinct is to stop what I’m doing and cater for someone else.
I need to stop myself from doing that and tell them to come back later and I’m busy because they’re too self centred to think and see that someone else is busy and only wants their thing done.
I’m the same, I go into doing the new thing mode
the thing is, i get told/implication , is that their thing is both urgent and important , so the feeling of urgency gets me every time.
anyone with an ounce of self awareness would never want you to drop what you are doing
I wonder if the habit of people expecting messages returned near instantly has bled into other aspects of life
soo I buy some specific parts from an Australian vendor. Yay local.
After 10 days of order confirmation and hearing nothing, I drop them a quick courteous “Heya this was paid in full on XX but I haven’t heard anything back, just wanting to check up on the order progress”
what I get back is a literal three page whinge about how they’re a small aussie business and working here and there and oh yeah the item had to be backordered that’s on them for not telling me it was in stock but they can’t run live inventory 24/7 they’re not amazon, they’re a small mum and dad aussie business and on and on and I shit you not I can paste the whole fuckin’ thing if you want it’s like they decided my email was their personal blog.
And I really really just wanna reply with jesus fucking christ dude but that’s not productive. Is there a polite way to say “All you had to say was it was on back order, and to be honest this whole screed has put me right the fuck off you as a business mate fuckin’ hell”? Do I want there to be a polite way of saying it. Should I just grab the goods and bail?
All you had to say was it was on back order, and to be honest this whole screed has put me right the fuck off you as a business mate fuckin’ hell
I’d say almost exactly that. Except with the swearing. Or go with “I wasnt having a go, I was requesting an update which you failed to provide but your response says a lot about you as a business. Keep that in mind next time someone requests an update you haven’t provided. I do you the courtesy of sending this privately rather than a google review. Any response other than “thank you” and I’m happy to change that”. Drop that last sentence if you wanna be more passive.
This is probably the best wording to use imo, nice balance of “friendly local” but also “don’t mess with me” and “wtf dude chill”.
"Thank you for providing and update on the status of my order, and context surrounding the delay.
I appreciate that you are a small business, I bought this item from you not just for my own needs but to support small businesses. However, I do not appreciate having paid in full for an item, receiving no update on the status of said item, and when inquiring about such, receiving a passive aggressive three-page trauma dump of the struggles of running a small business.
I understand you are not Amazon, however if you wish to keep providing the services you do, and gaining and retaining customers, I reccomend proof-reading your responses prior to sending them.
Your response to my reasonable question regarding the status of my order, after almost 2 weeks since I paid, is unwarranted and does not speak well for your customer service skills."
Then either end with a request for refund/cancel the order, or wait for the order.
“Thank you for the reply. I request a refund within five working days.”
That is all. If they don’t do it then you post the three pages on google review. No need to warn them about it.
This was a welcome gift.
very nice 🙂
That’s so cute!!
