Right? I dwell and think heavily about the meaning of things, the reasons for injustices, philosophical flaws, historical events, the paths that got us to today, and general answers to things. I love deep dive conversations about just about anything from movies, to history, science and tech tech, or just general catching up. I’m up for anything and yearn to share or learn something new. Yet, I can’t count on my fingers and toes how often I get called “heavy” then shortly thereafter hear some major bias or hangup that effectively stops the conversation because that friend’s comfort or energy has waned. I assume my comfort level is just higher than average. Odd, considering I’m pretty introverted but can really open up once I’ve gotten to know you. I’ve been to therapy, faced a lot of adversity and abuse in life, and I’ve been to the brink more than once… Maybe fewer people have faced that or are willing to share than I thought. I sometimes think it is me but anymore I wonder if maybe it’s the culture. The US definitely has a friendship pandemic and the reasons for that weigh heavily on me. Culture in the US has become so isolated and xenophobic. What are we to do when everyone is becoming lone wolves that refuse to be apart of a community or something real?

Edited for context and sentence structure.