Me
I’ve never realized it could get this bad. I’ve always been miserable my whole life, but i feel like i’ve hit a new low. The combination of middle eastern politics, toxic environment and stressful worklife is such a toxic one…
I took a day off today, because i was so anxious that all i could do is lie on the couch and pray it passes. Didn’t have anyone to help me, since everyone i knew was asleep (i wake up very early) or i didn’t want to annoy them. I felt like i just wanted to jump off the building to stop the pain.
Then i took zoloft a couple of minutes ago. I’m not having a panic attack anymore (hence me creating this post) but i still feel so shitty. I’ve had a horrible day before it even started, and i have a huge backlog of work that i have to finish in two days. Usually i forget to take zoloft, since i felt like it doesn’t have an effect at all on me (maybe i’ll make another post about this later) But i guess it helps a little.
Bah, rant over.
Contemplating just giving up on the public system here for any sort of real answers or solutions. But I’ll see.
For personal reasons, I’m not keen on the idea of self diagnosing anything. But what I will allow myself to do is lurk in spaces where I feel like I identify with a lot of people or things they go through. And learn.
So honestly feeling pretty low for a number of reasons right now. But like, what’s new? Lol. And while the economy is shit, at least I’m pretty far away from any signs of war or far right politicians wiping their asses with the constitution where I am.
Edit: sorry for the deleted comment. I accidentally posted this as response to an ongoing conversation instead of top level comment.
I also lurk in those communities. I don’t call, label or diagnose myself; i just kind of vaguely relate to them.
Personally i’m concerned for a whole war/more genocide in the region. But not much we can do but hope.
(Np, i noticed the comment but i knew it was a mistake c:)