Update: Thank you for all your kind words. I am now crying in my car reading your comments in my work’s garage. My shift starts soon. I am going to dry my face first and think about resignation.

I feel so awful. I have multiple panic attacks. I want to cry. My body feels like it is not mine. I want to quit but my legs are like noodles. I can’t even get up.

I know it is all in my head (perhaps) but I really think people don’t trust me anymore. I don’t trust myself too.

Please don’t send me any self harm alert. I am not thinking about that. I just want to vent.