Im male born, but i dont feel particularly “male” so to speak: currently im non-binary bc i dont feel i belong to gender categories. Its just like im mentally in a gender-limbo and i think ive been in it my whole life, but its not concrete, as in sometimes i wish i was a girl (this happened also when i was a kid) but at the same time i feel like the categories of binary gender arent fit for me. Im just confused as in what i am. From the outside i think im generally seen as male but inside it’s kinda like i don’t care but i don’t like to be in the gender binary but i wish i was more “girly”. Can anyone relate?
There is a big overlap beteen the autism and queer communities.
Something about realizing you don’t fit neurotypical expectations and boxes.
At some point i realized that while online, i have absolutely no need nor experience gender. Like there is no difference in how i read or reply to your comments wether i would be male or female. Same goes for playing most games, though in rpg i may pick any.
I do experience gender in some situations, as a partner and parent, because there having a gender makes actual sense. I am not at odds with my birth assigned sex i just dont require it all the time and enjoy experimenting with gender non-conform behaviour.
Also since i am married i am no longer looking to find a life/sex partner and in a professional setting should strive for gender neutral behaviour anyway.
As terminology i identify as mostly non-binary, fluid across the binary line but skewed to one side.