… and I can see how I contributed to things going to shit, too. And I did a lot of good things, too.

With the same reasoning, it could be argued that she was toxic, or both God and she.

Where was this (country, state, rural, city)?

That depends entirely on your load. A common approach is sharding. Often memcache can help, too.

We will be hiking together until then.

Debian developer/user here. My marriage just works.

Found the american.

Some aspects are accurate, like my gender.

I worked as a researcher and started applying the scientific method to the bible and faith, and it fell apart. before i tried to “disable” critical thinking on many issues in the bible and push those issues away. Also, I realized that my faith kept me from accepting responsibility for my actions and kept me externalizing responsibility to god and/or the devil and other people.

Nachgebessert und konkretisiert.

So is there anything that I should or should not say /do?