𝕯𝖎𝖕𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖙⚧ [She/Her]

🏳️‍⚧️⚧ I’m a trans girl ⚧🏳️‍⚧️

pfp is a picrew I made recently after coming out, I hope I look this pretty soon: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/94097

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Cake day: October 16th, 2023

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  • I think it might have been partly because I said to her once that I wanted to try and reduce or prevent muscle loss on HRT and maybe she took that as me having second thoughts about getting HRT. Also she didn’t specifically say that girlmoding or commitment was required for HRT but that she found my lack of it concerning. I shouldn’t beat myself up too much for it though. She was trying to gatekeep me, I didn’t mess up by telling her that.

    I was thinking that I would take HRT long enough for permanent changes to set in since one thing that I do worry about is muscle loss on HRT. Then I’d stop taking it and the blockers, probably gradually and let my body’s natural hormones take over again. I’m not sure how bad muscle loss on HRT is, I’ve heard some people say it’s not that bad but I’ve heard others say enthusiastically that it’ll “melt your muscles away like butter”. If it’s closer to the second I definitely plan to stop in the future.

    Also yeah, I guess what I’m doing would be considered informed consent, not DIY. Im my defense I’ve heard many people call it DIY and I’m still very much a noob a this whole trans thing (only came out a few months ago and I learn new things everyday 😅).










  • I’ve seen people talk shit and try and argue that detransition rates are higher than they really are. They’ve used that to justify long wait times for HRT and transitioning. I just didn’t want people to give me the speech about how the wait is to make me sure so I don’t regret it and detransition. I know that won’t happen because I desperately want the changes, my flat chest gives me immense dysphoria.

    I have no idea why or if my therapist is gatekeeping me, it could just be that she hasn’t written the letter yet, but I for one am not willing to wait more months for her to do so. The sooner I start the better.















  • I never feel bad for correcting them when they self-incorrect themselves. I tend to be more on the aggressive side when someone gets it right the first time but then goes “sorry sir”. One time I went off on a waitress for doing it, and she looked so scared and deeply regretted it, she looked like she was going to cry. After the meal when she brought the check she apologized profusely for misgendering me. So I think being a bitch about being misgendered is sometimes a good thing. When I’ve been nice people are pleasant but end up forgetting. But when I’m a bitch, they remember.

    It’s like spritzing a cat’s face with water to get them to stop doing that thing they shouldn’t be doing. Unpleasant but necessary.