No idea why your still here but, nah, I’m not at all seeing whatever the hell your seeing right now. I’m done either way, I’m pulling out, I’m clearly fucking doomed, the writings on the wall in bright red, I’m never getting out of this hellhole and I’ll forever be alone. My bad for wasting y’all’s time, I’ll go back to my inescapable fate and just hope to die sooner then later.

Literally elaborate on anything that your saying, anything at all. And are you even willing to actually bother with that if I do? Something tells me not.

Ah yes, show empathy to people when they won’t ever do the same and could give less of a fuck and won’t ever appreciate it to begin with. Sure. Sounds fair. Definitely doesn’t sound like a recipe for disaster. Definitely haven’t already done that for years and have only been repeatedly betrayed and hurt and abused as a result without fail. It does absolutely nothing for me or the other person, they do whatever the fuck they want regardless, it’s always completely one sided for me, always, nobody ever tells me anything, nobody is ever fucking honest for 1 second, you clearly can’t comprehend how infuriating and suffocating that is.

If your just talking about some really basic shit like “don’t be rude to strangers” or whatever then yeah, no shit, I default to that when masking to get by, obviously, right now I’m just letting it all out, I don’t talk like this to anyone outside of these spaces. Also legitimately fuck you on that one, nah I’m not giving you the benefit of the doubt for tossing THAT at my face, I’m done forcing a smile at you people when you could barely empathise less, how about YOU go through hell from day 1 of birth, have not a goddamn soul in your entire miserable existence but for your abusers, and then try to communicate with a world that will NEVER understand or care for you? Good luck keeping a smile with that, let alone your sanity. Again your not listening, your not bothering, so I’m not gonna repeat myself on anything anymore.

As have you dude, your not even trying or listening anymore. Your clearly never gonna tell me anything beyond vague bullshit that I can’t even work with and the same common pieces of advice that I’ve tried my whole life and is clearly leading me nowhere but straight into a fucking black hole, nah, I’m done, this is no better then walking in circles with fucking chatgpt, my bad for crying out and existing, guess I’m just meant to be forever lost, alone, and broken until I go insane, thanks for confirming that and lying to me the whole time, have a good rest of your day.

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Not sure if that qualifies as a “harsh” truth since I already know all of this but can’t do anything about it because I’m not lucky enough to escape societies bullshit.

I’ve already heard all of this before, and unless your gonna tell me what, how, where, why, etc. then there’s literally nothing I can do with this information. “Go talk to people” yeah, easier said then done dude, “it’s scary and difficult but worth it” then you won’t ever understand, you’ve never had to experience how evil and cruel people are, how unforgiving and pity, how they tear you down at your lowest and keep you down at that for their own benefit, I’ve been trying to “talk to people you can connect with” (which again, who? Where? What? You gonna elaborate? None of you ever fucking elaborate on anything, guess I should’ve been born a psychic like all of you apparently) for fucking EVER and it’s only resulted in hurt and rejection, over and over and over and over again without change (literally NEVER matters what I try to do differently, same fucking result each and everytime without fail, can’t EVER please anyone or anything, am never, EVER enough, can’t be myself, can’t please anyone, can’t provide whatever the fuck people constantly demand of me, have nothing “unique” or “useful” to provide to anyone, I’m not fun, I’m not skilled, I’m not special, I’m not talented, I’m not interesting, I’m not wealthy, I’m not stable, I’m nothing, nobody wants anything to do with me, and now I keep getting banned and suspended left and right on the only 3 or so damn websites anyone ever uses anymore and am never told why, and if I vent about it people get hostile and tell me to shut up and that I deserve it, I’m a fucking alien, you’ll never understand, no one ever will) and the end result is complete total isolation from everything, irl, online, doesn’t matter, nobody gives a shit, I’m too weird or too broken or too this or too that for everyone, even other “weridos” want nothing to do with me, I’m a fucking cosmic error apparently, shouldn’t even exist and yet here I am as a cruel joke.

Can’t heal because I’m alone and uncared for, my social skills are literally non existent anymore because of how little I’m able to talk to anyone, my brain barely functions anymore, society and people won’t care for me because I’m broken and useless and weird, can’t stop being broken and useless and weird unless I’m healed, so I’m stuck in a vicious cycle that’s beyond my control, there’s literally nothing I can do about it, and I’m not fortunate enough to already have a found family or some shit like that to fall back on, and mind you I didn’t survive shit, I’m still stuck in the same rut as I’ve always been stuck in, I’ve been trying to do anything to get out of it for years and years and years and NOTHINGS changed, 0 progress, life keeps violently shoving me back into the same hole over and over again and won’t let me be, won’t let me enjoy a fucking SECOND of peace other then maddening isolation, I can’t make any progress or anything before something comes out of nowhere and pushes me back to square 1 or I make just one mistake and everything falls apart in a nano second and it’s back to my eternal fate as usual, so guess I’ll die at this point, clearly I’m not meant to exist if literally all of you got everything figured out already and are psychics that know everything and never have to struggle with anything ever. Death is the only escape at this point, and I can only hope it comes sooner then later, I have to make my peace with it and wait for my survival instincts to die out so I can finally fucking rest and leave this unending hellhole, I’m so fucking done and sick of everything, I’m never, EVER, gonna get my needs met, I never have and clearly never will at this point, nobody fucking cares (you’d think I’d at least have ONE goddamn person on this godforsaken planet that VAGUELY gives a shit but NOPE, NOT. EVEN. ONE. so clearly that “promise” of yours is factually false, there isn’t a single soul that accepted me for who I am and never will, if even my own goddamn family, the people who supposedly are meant to “raise” me, would rather call the police on me and nearly get me arrested for breaking down Infront of them because of all the stress that they put on me and the stresses that my society puts on me ontop of that then WHO, FUCKING WHO ARE THESE IMAGINARY SAINTS YOUR TALKING ABOUT THAT WOULD EVEN BOTHER?? WHERE??? WHY??? WHO??? WHAT??? People are only getting more and more hostile with time, not less, so I’m fucked), I’m all on my own and is clearly gonna stay that way, I’m never getting “help” beyond being filled up with drugs against my will and tossed into an insane asylum and rotting there forever.